Sweety Sweeterson

Things are chugging along nicely. My activity has improved a lot lately. I’ve been mixing walking and going to the gym. I ride the stationary bike on the fourth level on hill inclines for 45 minutes. Sometimes I wonder what people think of the fat girl riding along on the bike. I assume people associate fat people with people that can barely walk up a flight of steps. It feels great to know that I can peddle fast with resistance for 45 minutes without stopping and know that I could go for an hour if I really want to.

I am trying to keep depressive and anxious thoughts at bay as much as possible, as I am reaching that portion of the month that seems to send me into emotional over drive. I hope exercise will help with this.

I have been counting calories instead of points lately, not for any reason other than laziness. Can you tell how indecisive I am?

Also, have been avoiding the scale even though its tempting and calling out to me.

And finally, I wondered about my thoughts on sweets. There aren’t many days that go by that I don’t delve into something sweet. I wonder if other people are like this as well. When I did Atkins for that week, I would try to find something sweet to eat and end up with sugar free jello and whipped cream. Josh said “why not just accept that you can’t eat sweets on this diet?” That is something I don’t think I will even accept, the notion of not eating sweets. From my point of view, the reason why I am able to keep going is because I allow treats in my diet. If they fit in, I eat them. What’s wrong with fitting them in if it keeps me going long term? It is possible that I shouldn’t worry so much about eating them, but if I banned them, I feel like I would give up sooner and end up binging. But, I also know that having them around can be bad because they can trigger me to over eat. I suppose I’m rambling on the subject, but I stand by eating something sweet if I want it, rather it be low calorie or in small portions.