hi, i'm ashley

and i'm fat too. i have always been fat, even when i was much younger. i have never attempted a REAL diet before, because i think for a long time, i didn't think i was that fat.

this was wrong, by the way. i think i was just crazy. i have no idea how much i weigh right now, though i'm estimating probably 310-315. i gained about 15-20 pounds in the past year, which is not good at all.

now lorrie and i have been friends for a long time. and as long as i've known lorrie, she's always been trying some kind of diet, bless her heart. i remember one summer where she was obsessed with green goddess dressing and poured it over everything. adorable.

recently, though, i've been thinking that maybe it's time to make a change in my lifestyle. so i've been making tiny changes here and there -- no more red meat, no more soda, no more ice cream every night. i'm totally on it. also, i really love my boyfriend. and i know my boyfriend likes a little junk in the trunk, but i think i maybe don't need so much junk. i still want to keep a little junk, but not a lot.

i've also made some investments in this whole weight-loss thing. i bought a scale for the first time in my life. i'm trying to get a treadmill from my mom. i'm even going to new york to visit lorrie (and also walk around all day).

lorrie even promised to send me treats in the mail, which i suppose i can do for her, too :)

so today, so far, for breakfast, i've eaten about a cup of grapes, which is 114 calories. for lunch, a bunch of people from work and i are going to order out sushi. i'm ordering a calfornia roll with a side of edamame. for dinner, my boyfriend and i will be eating penne pasta with marinara sauce.

tomorrow is date night for my boyfriend and i, which means we usually go out to eat somewhere, so that will be difficult.

anyway, wish me luck. i'll try to take some pictures and post them soon.